Life group,a little Life for Tuesday Nite

tuesday are always a special night,because of life group at the Johnsons' are to say the least,interesting.the is such a variety of different people,their backgrounds,their unity in fundamental beliefs in God, and his Son, Jesus.
an intriguing conversation of the book "The Reason for God" by Timothy Keller is our highlighted feature.and of course tonight's chapter "The Clues of God" brought as stimulating a conversation as ever,while we all meet other people who struggle with believing in God and the bible,we as Christians seem to have a struggle with explaining our faith,oh don't presume I've excluded myself.this only stems from the fact that they,those who don't have a faith in Christ,are always searching for hard and conclusive facts,something indisputable,before committing to a faith in Jesus.
oh,how well i remember those days,searching for truth,about God and Jesus' work on the cross,and religion.how close i came so many times,how the Spirit drew my heart so near,yet i would stop to argue in my mind what about this, what about that,only to find no concrete answers would come just the gentle urging of His Spirit.
i mean this wasn't once ,twice,or three times this was every Sunday i attended church.i would leave in a fog my mind asking the same insignificant questions,like why does bad things happen if God is so loving,i sure that we have all had our list.
i wasn't ready to give up,so as it happened i was invited to a men's retreat out of town.as the first nightly service ended again as they gave an altar call,i just couldn't stand it any longer,the doubts, the fears,i mean i didn't consider myself a bad guy,i just had to give in, i had to say yes,i had to accept this faith in Jesus,i mean there were no, visions of God,no burning bushes,no blinding lights,i just had to set aside all that was hindering me and just accept this Jesus as my Lord and Savior.
so as with the discussion of our group, i often wonder what it was like to be Abraham,there was no bible, no written words of God(scriptures),no evangelist,no preachers,no Sunday church service,bible tracts,nothing we see or hear today.yet,he knew of a true God,the Creator of Life,He was evident to him and worshipped this God and communed with Him,basing his faith on who He said He was.
i just get blown away every time i think about it.